A Truthful Look at Suicidal Impulses

wow. so relate. This kid seems like surrounded by love and understanding. I was ignored and bullied. But he's gone and I'm here. I"M HERE MOTHRFUCKERS you got him :( but u didn't won't get me. the depression the void the self-loathing--it didn't fucking get me. Fuck U death.

i've had unipolar depression all my life; not diagnosed til I was in my late 20s. Prozac saved my life, i swear to god, one day, after being on prozac about 4 weeks, I woke up and I didn't want to die. Amazing. An amazing feeling I'd never felt before. that was like 25 years ago and I've been off and on antidepressents and in and out of therapy. Depression came back--antidepressents stopped working...I don't know...I'm fortunate that I'm also alcoholic (self-medicating) and found the rooms of AA. I think I'm more depressed than alcoholic but following the 12 steps, the fellowship, sponsors, phone calls, you are never alone....all that probably saved my life. I would not have made it to 54 without it. And I'm grateful. Ultimately. I look at myself sometimes and I am astonished I am still here. I never thought I'd live past 40