Friday, December 30, 2016

Intervention Jamie Jesus and Ketamine

"The whole family never properly grieved her death and are the major dysfunctional freaks they are today because of it." 
reading blogs you sometimes come across phrases or sentences that stand out like a flag--this pertains to YOU. Of course I am the biggest freak in my family...my brother, though self-admittedly odd, has had the career, the family, the house, you know--a life.

I on the other hand...sort of flailed my way through life with no goals no plans and am flailing still. 
I want to be a vet tech cuz i love animals. I really want to be a vet tech because at some point I may have access to Ketamine.

I'm fascinated by Ketamine (special K) though I've never used it. It's a trance drug, a dissociative drug...the state my mind naturally takes due to PTSD. Ketamine will just help it along, I feel.
This intervention episode touched and enraged and saddened me on so many levels I can't begin to delineate without spiraling down into the K-hole myself...look I can do it without the K

It helps to have DID, what used to be called multiple personalities. the more divided i am the more protected i am and that's how i like to be.
then i realized this episode was recorded 10 years ago. I never watched it cuz the whole family are Jesus freaks, emphasis on the freaks...
but that is integral to Jamie's hellish life journey. With a mad bad father who could be Jim Jones--the narcissism. the religiosity. the control freak.
and i think Candace pulled her punches here because she didn't want to put Christianity in a bad light. But the bad light is the light of truth here, and the destructive potential of any religion is floridly shown in this sad mad family...
I'm going to do some research and see what happened to them all...I don't anticipate a happy ending, but you never know...Festivus miracles happen.

"Anyway, Jamie accepts treatment mostly because she’s religious and has such deep-rooted shame about her sins. She’s been sober since December 18, 2010."--Ryan O'Connell 



the initial intervention was in 2005. Five years is about right to sort out the madness of Jamie's family ties. I really do hope she is okay.

there are comments on the blog from someone who lives near Jamie and knows her personally. she's not the most sympathetic commentor but she's pretty funny as shown here ( her symbol is a unicorn in a rainbow so to me she's a-ok) "
Wow. I'm amazed that one of the most craziest Intervention subjects is Canadian! And from the same province! As me! I didn't watch this episode but from your description of teh crazy, I thought that kind of crazy could only be found in America. Never again shall I underestimate my own countrymen/women or think that only certain kinds of crazy exist in the US. Now when is an Intervention episode going to be filmed in my hometown?!?! Glad to hear that Jamie is sober - hope she stays that way!"

to me, the hardest thing about a recovering person watching interventions is seeing myself and my madness in so many different forms. We are all unique but we are all the same. OMG it helps me break through my own brick walls
in this intervention scenario i realize I am the father. that is me parenting myself. of all people, Anna, you should not be unkind to your inner child. Of all people. exactly.

the horror
the horror

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